160 -the end

I cant tell you how many times the word love is used in this book, it is unreal! On the other hand this book is almost what the narrator is thinking in his head. Why this? Why that? Mentally he forced himself to abandon life itself. All of this because he had found out that Chloe had been seeing another man..."Will". Chloe had previously slept with Will too which made it 10 times worse. As Chloe was confessing, he was telling her it was okay, and then they had not spoke in two day since the trip, until he received a letter int he mail. "I am sorry for offering you my confusion, I am sorry for ruining our trip to Paris, I am sorry for the inviolable melodrama of it....."The letter brought no relief to him only reminders. The recognizable speech that she used only reminded him of her and her face, and her smell, and her touch. It is surprising how often rejectionin love is freamed in moral language, the language of right and wrong, good and evil, as though to reject or not to reject. He also describes how it is surprising that the one who rejects is labeled evil. After everything, he still loves her though. At this point he is asking himself allot of questions as usual. "Was my love for Chloe moral, and her rejection of me immoral?"But he had got to the point of really bad depression,m and almost could not live with himself....basically was a slug that only thought about Chloe. Sadly he was in a process of writing a suicide text saying stuff like" its the only way I could say I love you, please understand I could not live with out your love", and after he wrote it imagined Chloe getting the call from the police. He doesnt do it. Next thing you know he is at a hotel by himself to just be alone I guess. Towards the end he is making references to Jesus, and once again asking questions making many references to a "Jesus Complex" Saying his Jesus Complex had turned the situation that the rejection was a sign that Chloe was worthy of contempt or best pity. I feel like the narrator had gone a little bit crazy just because he talks about hallucinating about the break up and that it did not even happen. The last chapter is titled Love Lessons and it is basically a sum of the whole book and what love really is. Assuming that there are certain lessons to be drawn from love, and that we start to be wise when we realize that we are not born knowing how to live.